Friends

EXTREME happiness is what i feel when i'am with them, moments that i won't bargain with anything in the world, well... if it's a flying unicorn then the deal is on. haha! jk.

Friends: people whom you considered as your second family; people who will never betray you; who always shares their food with you (for what is mine is ours); people who does stuffs that you used to be offended, but didn't, for you know they will always love you; and people that always hurts you... physically, especially when they saw their crush. like, why do they always do that... i mean... why do we always does that, it's brutal, but, nah... that's part of friendship.

I can't imagine myself without a friend, for having none is like a sadness in a bottle, it will always makes you drunk with tears.

Nah...

I've been lazy as a student: lazy to study mostly, but as i watch my classmates having high grades as a result of hard work, that inspires me... supposedly, but it didn't. I feel no movement inside me..

Now i question myself, why? 

Why not be like them--caring so much of the things that matters. 

Then i came into conclusion, all this time i didn't consider schooling as a thing that matters. I just looked at it as another playground to have fun with. 

Why not think of it as both play ground and serious matter.

In that way i can have fun while learning the essentials. 

See... there's no problem without a solution, even though my problem is just shallow like a puddle.

Just a dream

You held my right hand with your right hand and my faced was held with you left. I grasped your hair with my left hand, and you kissed me gently. As you lips touched my neck  i groaned with pleasure. We're in a room filled with both of us, and as the rain pours down outside and the cold night shimmers in the window, your breath is the only warmth i feel including your body. We were drowned with each other.. drowned by love.

I'am willing to submit myself to you as long as you and i will be forever, 

but how could i? 

If this love is just a dream and us would be NEVER.

Reason

As a college student-- what is the most reason that kept you fired up until graduation?

Me... i don't know. I kept on telling myself "do it for your parents" . Sure, it did gave me a boost but just for a short moment and didn't last longer than i expected.

Right now i'am still looking for my main reason on why should i keep going on what i'm doing. 

And hopefully i will.

Maybe not now... but soon!

I wish...

Hold me tight as the wind blew with all its might.

Come closer as the darkness and sky comes together.

Cuddle me longer as the bed allures us to sleep forever.

Moments like this... i wish we have each other.

self-hatred

A hurtful reality vs. a comforting imagination, turn between the two worlds you've created; confused on which side you would like to live your life with. However, no matter which world you live, you’ll always end up hating yourself for not choosing the other option, until it’s too late.